Monday, January 25, 2010

Progress


well here it is... a pic of me pregnant. So far so good, I really shouldnt complain YET about how big I am getting. I have heard from plenty of people in the last week that I am actually quite small for how far along I am... and well, I can never tire from hearing THAT :-)
Don't take any notice of the double chin though mmm'k? That's just the chocolate talking and i have sworn it off for good.
I think.


Wednesday, January 13, 2010

Never boring

Well it's been an interesting few weeks here at the compound...and I must say that my life is and probably never will be, boring. I would like to attribute that to my awesomeness... but I am sure it has more to do with something cosmic, like Karma. I probably do something repeatedly that puts me in the bottom of the 'let's do something good for her' category.

Ok, that's not entirely true... good things happen, but my pig headedness will tell you that it's all because I MAKE them happen... no one else. Honestly. I'm awesome remember?

First, we had a bit of a set-back with E's health. It's all better NOW, but on Dec 23rd he had another seizure at work. He hit a conveyor belt, then the concrete, so his face took quite a beating. Other than his mouth looking like an 80 year old man who forgot to put back his dentures, he has come out looking good... so cross your fingers WCB comes through with the new grill, mmm'k?

Thankfully his medication has been muddled with and is now at a good dose so this 'shouldn't' happen again... but the down side is he has to take it for at least a year. E is a typical guy's guy. He does not like to be dependent on anything that is in any way health related, so this has been a bit of a struggle for him. Admitting he needs it isn't easy, so I am trying my best to be a little less authoritative when I ask him if he is taken it. You know, I don't grind it up in his food anymore. (I kid, I kid). I may not show it all the time, but I'm proud of him.

So the second entertaining thing to come our way is that we are moving. I say entertaining because really, it's been nothing short of a laugh-o-minute. (Please note sarcasm). It's been awhile since we have been in the rental market, so hunting around to find the perfect place isn't what I call a hobby-I-should-take-up. It's fucking exhausting...and well, unrewarding to say the least.

Funny enough, we selected the second place we viewed. It really is perfect for us, but before we submitted our application we wanted to rule out the others so we didn't 'miss out'. Well, we were definitely NOT missing out, and wasted a few days by making that decision I tell you.

Regardless, after about two weeks of back and forth with the property managers, we have finally been approved and we move in 3 weeks. Packing has commenced, but I did forget that you can't really pack much unit the week before because ... YOU FUCKING USE EVERYTHING! Not going to lie, I have had to re-open a few boxes and it pleases me none.

Secondly, down-sizing from 3000sq ft of house to 1000sq ft isn't something I would recommend. Even to someone I don't like very much. Short of giving away whole rooms to random strangers, I still haven't worked out what we are going to do with some of the stuff. Looks like craigslist is going to get a few postings from me shortly.

Shit, I guess I better do that quickly huh? Cause from what I hear, things don't always sell on there. Perhaps I should list them CHEAP?

Anyone want a Tony Little 'elliptical', an Ikea bed frame and mattress, an old treadmill, an entertainment unit, or a 27" TV? Call you friends... going quick!

And lastly... baby. He kicks the shit out of me frequently and doesn't let me sleep much... but other than that all is well. Ok, not WELL... I'm getting fatter by the chocolate, but whose fault is that except the chocolate companies??? GEESH.

Just as a special note: if you invite me over for a visit, lock away your goodies because I can't seem to keep my hands off them. I can smell 'em a mile away.

**sigh**

Wednesday, December 30, 2009

It's a boy!

Othere than to tell you I'm fatter than a house... lol...

The only other news to report is that IT'S A BOY!!!

More posting coming soon :-)

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

One of my biggest PROBLEMS

...

I let people walk allll over me because I can't stand confrontation and I NEVER have the words to defend myself in the moment, so I buckle/cave and let them do it and I feel like crap for it.

Well, I sort of did it again in a way...and now that I have had a lot of time to think it over since the 'EVENT' happened. I am pretty pissed off about it actually and it isn't getting any better.

So, because I still have a bit of kindness left in me, I am not going to post about the 'EVENT' was about, who it involved, and why I am so angry... I will leave you all with the following words...

DON'T FUCKING THINK YOU CAN TREAT ME LIKE SHIT AND I AM GOING TO KEEP TAKING IT FROM YOU. GO FUCK YOURSELF.

Amen.

Thursday, December 3, 2009

Vent

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

Overly Sensitive?

I know I am. And being pregnant makes it worse.

I keep going through these moments where I think my friends are all disappearing (Except you V, you are my rock!) since I announced I was pregnant. Almost like they have lost interest in me... and well, it hurts.

One of my closest friends especially. She has become so self-centered it actually scares me. I feel neglected, dismissed, unimportant, and completely shut out - and yet, to her... she has not changed at all. I sometimes don't even recognize her.

It has happened on a few occasions where she has said something so selfish, in such a completely innocent way, she is baffled when you call her out on it. Mind you, I don't necessarily call her out on them, more just ignore it... but then she gets hurt if ANYTHING is done in any way that she isn't the first person you think about.

Holy, its hard to explain this without using specific examples, but I don't want to be petty.

I hate confrontation, so I wont do it... because in this case, its a no-win for me anyways. She will feign hurt, accuse me of being callous, and pout for weeks on end that she is a victim. Since I see her every day, I have about zero interest in that. So confrontation wont happen. What I need is a dignified way to explain to her how she is making me feel so she will UNDERSTAND and not act like she is being attacked.

But truthfully, I don't really see that happening either.

You think I AM sensitive? She can do no wrong.

Thursday, November 26, 2009

:(

Mt Tits are HUGE. and I mean HUGE

I think they are grossly HUGE.

All you men can shut the fuck up. I can't stand them